in the shadowy dark
i await your gleaming light
i'm lost
on the edge of night
no glimmer of hope
no peace to ease these fears
cold
alone
afraid
when will you come?
are you leaving me for dead
amongst this piercing blackness?
my heart grows weary in your coming
as i have waited for so long
my spirit thins with my breath
cold
alone
afraid
please, i beg, as i turn to dust,
i cannot live without thee
i fade into the ground
waiting, as promised, eternally
cold
alone
afraid
i laid upon the ground
enveloped in an evil fog
covered in blood and dirt
barely breathing
pale as snow
akin to death
and you came
in your glorious radiance
and utter beauty
gently cradled my fragile body
tenderly brushed off the dirt
soothing my wounds
breathing softly into my brokenness
giving yourself to me
now a part of you, i am alive
your wellspring of devotion
healed me
reaching across my bed
to a space, cold and empty
feeling the glass tears cut my face again
i curl up
a naked ball of intolerable pain
your warmth is an ocean away
(it has been for far too long)
suicide continues to loom over me
as reality strikes blow after blow
to my already beaten body
wondering how much more cruel torture i can bear
before i'm consumed
the heartless world just laughs and taunts
as i try to reach my hands across the void
and the closest i can get
is to lay your picture
upon my breast